Frdys.

I was thinking about you a little while ago. I was in the car, and chasing those lights with my sight. Eventually, i realize, today’s Friday. I remember, you told me that “your” Friday was meant for “loosen up”.

Maybe you’re out tonight with your friends. Or with some random girl, or maybe with some girl you really like. Drinking beers, smoking cigarettes, telling jokes and laughing hard about it after. Or maybe you share stories that you don’t usually tell to anyone.

Well, that makes me sad. I really want to be that someone who you’ll spend your Fridays with. And I want to be that someone who you’ll tell stories with. I want to have a beer and a toke with you then share those laughs after.

But I think maybe I’m not good enough. Maybe you’re better off without someone like me. You don’t persuade me to do things, I just feel that I have to. But I also think that I’m being too much and suddenly you’ll be done taking all my words and give up.

I gave up on you just before you knew it. I can’t stand all those things that I’m saying to you. Cause I can’t find the right words. When I’m starting to open my mouth and tell something, different words are slipping and something about it just seems wrong. All wrong. I feel awkward with the situation. I thought maybe you laugh your ass off when reading my messages. Or you just go through with it without reading it at all. That’s a lot worst.

Well, I should take some time to think about other things. You always fed up my mind and all I can think of is how impossible it is for us to be together.

Or maybe i was wrong?